Of Bread and Burns.

I've been working at the bakery for a almost two weeks. So far, I like it a lot. I see there's a lot of tension between levels, but I'm beginning to believe that's impossible to avoid with a female boss. I like my supervisor. She's teaching me a lot about breads and laminated doughs and I'm truly enjoying every minute of it. I brought home some extra croissant dough yesterday but I didn't get a chance to make some croissants yet. It already expanded to double the size. haha. Better use it tomorrow.

I was asked if it was possible to work last Sunday but I was working all day at the candle store. I told the co-owner, who'd asked, that if they hired me, I'd quit my other job. So, she's gonna have me shadow the other baker a few times, get me familiar with the ovens* and possibly hire me on for at least a few days a week. They're also trying to tie down a large laminated dough account and if that goes through then they'll have me for more than a few days. That'll be nice. Then I can absolutely quit the candle store.

*The ovens are walk ins and seriously intimidating. What if you got stuck in one! You could burn alive. Ahhhh! So scary.

I did go turn in an application for another store today though. I'm done. I can't stay at my other job for much longer. The tension is more than I can bear and after the things I've learned, I can't stand knowing these women think negatively about me. One person did make me feel a lot better. She told me all about the many women that have come and gone because of the management team. How scheming and truly ridiculous they can be.

I just don't understand it. Every time I have worked with a female manager, I have ended up quitting because of lack of respect. Why do women feel the need to alienate each other? To push away others who are competent and talented? As if they can be the only one in the immediate area with any ability. Shouldn't it be about working together to create a working and successful team? Why is it that men seem to be the ones who figure this out and all women can think about is finding petty reasons to get rid of each other? It's just so ridiculous.

I know that I make mistakes. And I know that sometimes I only put forth a small percentage of actual effort. But, I also know that I am talented. I am a great worker who strives to give the best of herself. And it all sound like a line but it's not. I have been offered promotion in every company I have worked in since I was 17. That means something. Working at a large chain company that is willing to hire an 18 year old on as a manager means something. And I'm so tired of these women acting like I'm lying. That I don't do anything and I didn't do the things I claimed to do. Let me point out that it wasn't me who told them about me. It was my district manager. A district manager for a large company pointed me out and said, 'hey, this girl knows what she's doing.' So, in all seriousness, they can go fuck their catty selves.

They need to open a Sur La Table in the valley. I'd be all over that. Management experience? Yes, sir. Culinary experience? You bet your sweet ass. Retail experience? More than I wish. Hire me. I need a big sign that says that. I will bring success to your company.

Well, tomorrow's another day at the bakery. I'm excited to go in. I really enjoy it. After work I'm gonna go home and put a butter block in that croissant dough, make some samiches for Jesse and me, then head to his work so we can go to the beach. Swimming. Yay. Plus I need to tan that terrible line out of my back. I've got a straight freaking line running across my shoulder from burning them a week ago. It's terrible. Need to erase with more tanning. I'll try post pictures soon of breads and such.